Wednesday, May 05, 2004
eyes have been teary lately ... feel like crying any moment ...the stress is mounting everyday ... and yet , knowing that God is always there seems to make things look better ... the rain was nice ... at least it kinda made me a bit happy ... destressed but walking in the rain ... felt like the rain water was cleansing me thoughout ... haven't been feeling all that happy lately ... things or people always don't seem the way they look ... they may look happy but deep down ... they're sad ... stress and screaming inside ... i just feel like crying ... i don't wanna cry but ... rather cutting or doing something destructive ... i guess crying would be a better solution ... at least it doesn't kill if done too often ... then again , i don't cry often too ... so yar ... eyes are a bit sore ... but it's quite ok i guess ... just can't wait to get the exams over and done with ... at least i won't be that stress anymore ... sometimes i just wish i canget into a deep sleep ... and not wake up for a very long time ...
but then again ... i'm not the only going through this ... so whatever lar ... trying hard to keep my spirits up ... thinking of happy stuff everyday ... and having my little stuff toys around is also good ... some how it helps to keep my stress level down ... hmmm ... dunno why ... anyways ,
tomorrow - chinese exams
friday 7th may - physics and social studies
monday - e. maths and geography
tuesday - literature
wednesday 12th may - chemistry
friday 14th may - a. maths (last paper)
one more week to go ... to pass ... whatever it is , the faster it pass the better ... gonna go now ... byez ...
posted at 5/05/2004 09:16:00 pm
